{"id":677,"date":"2016-12-29T16:02:52","date_gmt":"2016-12-29T16:02:52","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/thousandchances.com\/blog\/?p=677"},"modified":"2016-12-29T16:04:08","modified_gmt":"2016-12-29T16:04:08","slug":"last-christmas","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thousandchances.com\/?p=677","title":{"rendered":"Last Christmas"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"Last<\/a><\/p>\n

George Michael died. We were listening to his song, Last Christmas the day before. Wondering about his life, what a handsome guy he used to be when he was still in the Wham. I had their poster up on my wall above the bed. Much later\u00a0him coming out, thinking \u00a0what a pity. Most of the handsome ones turn out to be with different orientation.<\/p>\n

Then came the news that Carrie Fisher died. A day later her mum. Just found\u00a0\u00a0out about her mum a few hours ago. My son telling me that how come we don’t cry when a stranger dies, yet we are totally devastated when a relative or friend dies. \u00a0My empathy went overboard, and almost started crying at Massimo Dutti while shopping for a coat.
\nMakes you wonder\u2026 Life is too short. You never know what is around the corner. And no, I am not drunk, only had a glass of white wine before my fish chowder at the Ritz.<\/p>\n

This year is almost over. Our time with my family is over. Took them to the airport yesterday morning. The week went by so fast.<\/p>\n

They’ve spent 7 days and 7 nights with us. Showed them all the sights we could squeeze into such a short time. Will tell you all about it in my next post. Also, about our 2 days in London.<\/p>\n

But for now, I just want to stop for a while and observe. To think, and to feel, to take in my surroundings, deal with my feelings, thoughts\u2026<\/p>\n

Almost a year has gone by, only 3 more days left. Yet certain things haven\u2019t changed. How everyone expects things from me, although each and every one of them different things.<\/p>\n

Always tried to live by their rules, be an obedient daughter, wife , perfect mother. Don’t ask my son though , because he would tell you otherwise.<\/p>\n

But what about me? What about my dreams, wishes? Trying to carve out time for my hobbies, taking time away from them is still a challenge for me. Always put others\u00a0needs before mine. By now I got better at it, but still need to improve.
\nSo once again I wow to spend more time on my writing, photography and gardening.
\nYou might call it a New Year resolution.<\/p>\n

For now I just want to stop feeling guilty. What would happen if I don’t vacuum right now, or the dirty dishes stay in the sink?<\/p>\n

Will my son be upset if his clothes are not perfectly folded in his drawers?<\/p>\n

Will the readers on Wattpad demand my head if I don’t post a new chapter today?<\/p>\n

NO. The answer is NO.<\/p>\n

So I am off to taking a nap. Right after I\u2019ve stopped to smell the \u2026no, not the roses, but that weird orange flower which is covering our rails \u2026<\/p>\n

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\"weird<\/a>
\nTo end on a positive note , our dog is about to be born\u2026.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

George Michael died. We were listening to his song, Last Christmas the day before. Wondering about his life, what a handsome guy he used to be when he was still in the Wham. I had their poster up on my wall above the bed. Much later\u00a0him coming out, thinking \u00a0what a pity. Most of the […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[57,28,26,4,44],"tags":[29,35,47,46,54],"class_list":["post-677","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-christmas","category-family","category-holiday","category-madeira","category-mother","tag-child","tag-family","tag-madeira","tag-mother","tag-xmas","has-post-thumbnail"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thousandchances.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/677","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thousandchances.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thousandchances.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thousandchances.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thousandchances.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=677"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/thousandchances.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/677\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":682,"href":"https:\/\/thousandchances.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/677\/revisions\/682"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thousandchances.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=677"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thousandchances.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=677"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thousandchances.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=677"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}